why me... i never really knew why either? never stopped to ponder over that qns... or was i ever even given a chance to ponder over it... i never realised.. what was the qns again? was there a qns? haix...
i think i'm having this mega mood swing now.. can't really explain why either... just don't feel good about anything.. could be the humid weather.. could be the weariness and tiredness.. could be the high expectation i set myself that i can't meet.. could jus be monday blues.. could be how life has left me in such a state...
this year i lost many things.. let's not forget material stuff.. i think i lost my kinda confidence... my kinda air.. the way i carried myself...my kinda of mental and spiritual drive...overall i think i lost myself...
then who am I now... am i just putting on an act? a mask? a pretence? i am just being someone the society wants me to me... someone the society will accept me? i'm tired.. very tired... who am I
today... i'm starting to regret to re-take chinese.. how..i really don't wat else to say... ms Lim said i did badly for physics... how can i.. i mean.. shouldn't i be.... is it complacency.. is it laziness.. it is because i expect too much.. it is because i shld have force myself to do physics in the first place...i know very well when something goes wrong..it not able finding fault but....haix
another thing... this term.. i'm having TAF on wed and fri.. then i have PE on tues and thurs... so 4 days a week i'm being tortured.. 4 track rounds or 8 hall rounds plus 2 circuits... haix... can someone recommend permanent MC for me... i can't feel my feet now.. and hurray.. i have PE tml...
forgive me.. if after reading today's entry u feel down.. feelings are supposed to be spread...
this is for shi bin...
BIN RAWKS!!